Hmm ...

Hmm ... think this post a bit dedicate to yz ( who knows and understands what i feel ... and at the same time i know how he feels ... :D ) weilin also ... shawn also :) ...



if u are not that three .. get your eyes off this post ... :D ... just joking ... lol


Hmm ... i actually have a different content to post initially ... but thats somewhere abit related so ...


Anyone of you has that thoughts that really trouble u alot alot ... till the point where you dun wan to face the truth , and trying to believe whats on the surface rather than having to think it through

maybe its just me ... but i have to think through almost every detail of things in order for me to do that thing ... otherwise i will feel very weird at doing it ... unless it is a really new thing that i have zero related exp ... that i will dare to do ... lol ... lifes is also just about collecting exp of everything ...
doesn't it ?

lol ... till just now ... i have a problem that has been troubling me till the point i really dun want to face the truth ...
and i have been running away from it actually ... i have been believing the surface truth

i thought that should be it ... that should be the truth

till just now .. b4 i writing this post ... i was thinking ... i believe its time i face the truth ...

i keep lying to myself ... but just now i had a breakthrough ... a breakthrough where i felt happy , joyful ... and yet sad at the same time
lol

hmm ... i dun really know hw to explain ...

but i wan to ask ... if any of your have this feeling b4

you finally has that chance to keep a calm mind thinking of a problem u trying to avoid ... even to yourself where u also dun wan to face the truth

and finally you are able to think through your problem

For me i felt happy and joyful cause i found out a side of me where i didn't thought it existed ... and i felt i have moved on to another stage of maturely ... maybe i did or didn't .. but i felt i did so ...

while sad part ... haiz ...

This contradiction i have felt for the 1st time ... i felt a lot of different types of contradictions before ... but not this one ... lol ... its like you have caught a rare species of pokemon likedat ... lol ...


hmm ... and so ... if anyone of you have this feeling before ... tell me ... :D ...
i will be a good listening ear de






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